The One.

8 06 2009

“Porque te busque por muchos momentos,

Faltastes en muchos dias,

Tuve necesidad de ti, por muchos meses.”

Antes de ti, no habia casi nada por lo cual seguir. Siempre estaba la esperanza de ese ser especial que iba a llegar a mi vida. No sabia cuando, pero si supe que eras tu.  I thought I would never find one person that would know what I was thinking before I said it, or even by the look on my face. Or someone that would accept my crazyness, clumsiness,grumpyness etc… But most of all; alguien que me amara tanto como para decirmelo todos los dias, aun cuando sabe que no se lo voy a devolver todo el tiempo.

Y llegaste Tu, y me sorprendio, el poder que hay en este amor.

Y llegaste Tu, mi bendicion.

Aun recuerdo, cuando llegaste Tu.

Ese primer beso. En un juego de retos. Todo daba vueltas, nada era seguro. Han pasado años; hoy, nada da vueltas y todo parece ser seguro. Eres la cancion que Dios me dedico. El susurro que me duerme cada noche. La fuerza que me hace seguir adelante cada mañana. No te cambio porque si fueramos gringos seriamos soulmates. Pero como somos latinos, somos novios. No se como explicarte que conoces lo necesario de mi, y sin saber todo lo bueno, ya conoces lo malo-y aun asi-me sigues amando. Cambios enfrentamos, y hemos de enfrentar. Pero son eventos interesantes que me hacen valorar la persona que amo cada dia mas.

When the friends are gone,

When the party’s over,

We will still belong, to each other.

After years keep on passing, and times keeps running out, I will still love you. Even if we’re rich, or we’re just not; I will allways love you.  If I don’t see you as often as I would like, I will love you more. If you are reading this tonight,remember I love you more.

Porque aun falta lo mejor,

Cuando te pueda ver todos los dias,

Y en las noches tu voz no salga por una bocina, sino que este a mi lado,

Cuando la pregunta no sea cuando nos veremos, sino, que vamos a cenar,

Al ver tu rostro cansado de llegar de tu trabajo, y tu mi cara alegre de verte llegar.

Cuando te tenga cada dia mi vida, y las noches ardientes sean,

Al compartir el ultimo respiro de la vida, junto a la persona que me lo quito cuando me enamoro con su mirar.

 Gracias por estar en mi vida.





Don’t Look At Me.Poem/Confession.

7 06 2009

If you ever felt like you could achieve anything and everything in life, you can. The small thought you could mess it all up-is also true. Sometimes we want some things so badly thinking they will complete our lives/but when they are our reality/ they don’t. I wish I didn’t jump stages of my life that could have been wonderful in other times. And I take full responsibility for changing myself from the role model-to- the one people feel sorry for. I have nothing else to do but change. Grow I guess. Should I leave everything behind and search for better things? Are the signals all telling me to do so? Should I strive for what I love even if it’s holding me back? God I need answers. I’ll start by loving myself and then I’ll try to love others. If it wasn’t for some key people in my life, I would have probably gone crazy by now. My life is at risk, my memories stumble because of the lack of quality I succumb myself to live in. Give others the example you have owed them for so long. Give yourself the chance to live. Even if it kills you at first.





Knowing The Enemy///Mathew 5:44///

7 05 2009

I have taken an unwanted break from my blog (i forgot my password combination). So excuse me if I seem a little rusty.But time has given it back to me when I needed it the most… Have you ever gossiped? I know I have, and sometimes it almost feels distressing.<—I have no idea if that is actually a word. I want to be brief but assuring today; I felt what you feel when betrayed. I had to stand on the other side of the sword and feel the pain. Yes, I have betrayed; its in my “list of sins”. But you never know what is betrayal until you are the one who isn’t betraying. What is my point today? Never do something in your favor that may negatively affect someone you call a friend. Because God said we should love our enemies–how much more do you think our friends? Treat as you wish to be treated. And kow that sometimes, your biggest enemy is: You!





What A Fight! {Proverbs 11:2}

23 11 2008

Nope, I’m not talking about last night’s wrestling match. More like last night’s thoughts in your mind. Last night’s reason for no sleep. Heck! Last night’s situation that may have defined you from today on. Allow me to give you an example… I asked God to please help me because I didn’t really regret my daily sins. I only wanted Him to pour true resentment in my heart one way or another. And believe me, I did not expect Him to do it this way, but I’m glad He simply did. I have this good friend right; well I recall saying nasty things to her and about some of her friends as well. Even though it was not a personal fight or never intended to be one in the first place, we saw each other as girls who could talk everything out. But last night was different, it was extreme. I don’t know how you deal with fury or desperation at times, but If you think you can handle it just because you don’t consider yourself a violent person let me prove you wrong. I regret saying a lot of the things I told my friend, but I understand perfectly that there are words that leave deeper wounds than any other kind of attack. My point today is for you to realize that we are not perfect at all, but we can think we are. That is where we sin. Believing you are better than anyone else just because you think so. I would love not only to be forgiven but to forgive myself for destroying (because of a bad temper and attitude) such a great friendship. God knows when we really wish to be forgiven. And He gave me a reason to bend on my knees and ask for mercy… But let Him know when you wish to forgive yourself because that my friend is a tougher fight than it seems. God Bless.





Avoiding “The Influence” Jeremiah 33:3

30 07 2008

I bet you are expecting me to start with a personal question right? Well let’s do it. Why did everyone tell us  ” Stay true to yourself ” or ” Always be Yourself ” ? Maybe, just maybe, they knew… Of course they did! The world has so much to do with who we become; sometimes we need to stop looking up to its standards of life and march to our own heartbeat. No matter how much we try, we can’t allways pretend to be fine when the world’s got you feeling low. God wants us to overcome the negative influences we must deal with in life. Whether its temptation or simple peer pressure God has made us stronger. Don’t change for anyone but God, because the rest of the world is simply temporarily “worth it”. This time I’m coming shorter than usual but remember my friend, maybe life’s tough, but in God all things are possible. Amen and God Bless.





Waiting…And anxiety. Isaiah 26:3

27 05 2008

We all love to wait. Not! Let me tell you something.Last week, I was in Disney World with my dad’s family. It was all going swell untill we went to Magic Kingdom. It was a nice day until my dad asked me if I could make another line while he and the folks were taking pictures of “Tigger”. I was in the line and my dad never met me there. I waited for and hour and took the ride alone because my daddy was absolutely nowhere to be found. After the ride,I was in the store (every ride has one) and I felt sure my dad was waiting for me there; well people, he wasn’t. It was 3pm, I was lost in Disney World. Wanna know when I found my daddy? 11:30 PM! The best thing was he wasn’t even sure why I was so stressed ( he thought I was having fun alone instead!) I was so frustrated, because I thought I wasn’t going to find him. Somehow God finds a way to make you understand some thingsby going through others. I found out that we take some things (and people) for granted. There’s a saying that : ” We love who destroys us and destroy who loves us”. Let’s change that. When I saw myself alone I started to think about how worried He might be looking for me and I found out he was actually thinking I was having fun without him. God is the same way. He raises us and somehow trustes us to stay in our righteous paths. I may have thought that I was lost, but my father knew I was doing ok all along. He was waiting on ME to come back from where I was. Anxiety is all I got when I was without my biological dad. Withouht my spiritual Father I prefer not to even imagine. Now then; Is God waiting on you to come back from where you’ve been?





Start Setting New Standards [Psalm 34:4-8]

15 05 2008

Ever felt like you have tried everything?  How about when you really wanted something to happen, and after a long time you still can’t figure out why you don’t have it. Life is full of mysteries. It’s up to us to believe everything has a reason; even if we can’t understand it. When your mom, dad or whoever raised you, asked you to eat your vegetables-they weren’t kidding. We all had to do it; and believe me, I hated it. But today, you and I know that vegetables are the healthiest and most nutritious food anyone can get. It even helps prevent many of the worst diseases like cancer, etc. Were we thinking about that when we were pushed into eating them? NO! All I remember is that green stuff tasted awfull. Perhaps today, you and I may wonder WHY-but why don’t we think about the REASON first? My dear reader, God holds the book of your story. He knows every chapter by heart. Because He wrote it. Don’t ask Him: ” WHY ? ” Simply thank Him because He is in control and everything will fall into place just in time. Set a new standard in your life. Think about what you can change and forget about what you can’t-leave it to God. Trust Him with your anxiety and the desires of your heart. If you feel lonely ( for example) don’t focus on every couple that surrounds you! Every time you feel that way, just talk to God and believe He holds the best for you. That’s how it is. In my case, vacations are about to start… I have a weight loss plan to follow and a summer job to complete. In my family heavy weight people are the order of the day. I let myself go after a long time ago break-up and gained some serious ponds. I knew it wasn’t healthy but I was auto-punishing myself for not being able to maintain that relationship afloat. I had to make a choice, it was either me or my “old standard of happiness” (my past relationship). I chose me, and I know that if you choose yourself before anything else in this world, you wont regret it. Know why? Because God didn’t regret it when he chose you either.





Love {1 John 4:8}

2 05 2008

Can anybody tell me what is love? Why do we suffer so much for a cheap imitation of “the best feeling in the world”? Allow me to explain. Ever since we were little kids we had “crushes” or really thought we liked someone, right? Well, once you reach a certain age… Jajajaj that feeling tends to evolve by getting “deeper” as we say: love. Sometimes people confuse love with attraction, but if you’re like me, you know the difference between a storm and a rainy day. Don’t really do this please, but I bet you and I have both been through it; and just for the fact we have, raise your internal hand when I say the word : Breakup. Excuse my language but; I bet we both also agree; It sucks. Well my friend, let me tell you something. Life has a bunch of surprises for you and they are not allways great. When I tell you it sucks I obviousely mean It because I’ve been through it. Once, we meet a person we like, we must take our time to observe. Where am I going with this? Well I’ve learned that we should never put any person before God in our lives. Because God is the only person that trully loved,loves and will love us. You know the PASSION movie right? I’ll write about that some other day. As I was saying, He showed me (through my experience) that I was to put Him first. I’m not saying we can’t make mistakes or that we are CPP “Christian/Perfect People” but just remember that : “For God so loved the world, that He gave His only begotten son…” Just so you and I were forgiven of our sins and could enjoy eternal life with Him before and after our phisical death. Don’t forget that even if God chose for you not to be with a certain person, it’s because He holds a better one specially for you. Look at it this way: Why have what you want when God has the best you can get? 








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